Lokendra Awasthi

Am I of that kind, who can't feel others? Or am I of those who feels more than required ! Am is a substitute of many of us , whom the sensitives marked as stone hearted. Am can feel the warmth, Am can feel the joy and even feel the  literature and love but some says Am can't feel them. When you were in tears did the Am smiled ! Or when you laughed did the Am stopped you ! No , absolutely not , because Am can feel you. But the problem is Am can't be always with I. What if Am was not with I yesterday, what if Am will not be with I tommarrow but feel the Am which is with I today. Yes, I Am, with you. When we sleep tommarrow will be changed into today and again Am will be with I. This I is You.

After the futile attempts, many irregularities came in the tenor of my life. It's just not my tale but hundreds of me, who tread towards the canon of not losing the hope. The antics one made just a jest of my ail, remarking it just an idle step but no one except well-wisher umpired my attempts that I just not had cast a bow into the bush. I have faced pain like the travail when someone like the bloc tried to hew down my attempts. The sole cause that I can't retrace my journey might have been described by some ideals but the truth seeks silence. With queasy and latent face times ago I was also praying for the fecund but, time and again I think that the fatalism is also biased. Thinking only about the presto in the race became my fault and a big gash quell me. Now the cosmic remark will only be there when i'll have a great efflux of fruitle  attempt.....     

तिम्रा लागि ज्यान दिन्छु तिमी मेरो मनको राजा ,,,,, यि त सब भन्ने कुरा न हुन ।  राम कृष्णको त्यो मधुर भावमा डुबिरहेको थिए म । लग्थ्यो भखरैमात्रै प्रेम मा धोका पाएर भौतरिरहेको यात्री हु । भनिन्छ नि धोका या दु: ख पाएपछी मनिस ले जिवन को अर्थ बुज्छ रे, त्य्ही भएर होला प्रेम-माया जस्तो पबित्र बन्धन्मा पनि धोका भन्ने पटो राखिएको ।   साच्चै नै प्रेम शब्दको सही अर्थ अझै पनि बुज्न सकिएन । साएद स्कूल मा पड्दा बेग्लै बिसए बनाएर पडाएको भए म पनि प्रेम मा बिद्द्वन हुने थिए होला तर पछी साथीहरुले भनेपछी थाह भयो , यो त बैकल्पिक रहेछ्, आफैले पड्ने र बुझ्नुपर्ने । आज अन्ज्रेजी समय अनुसार फेब्रुअरी १४ यानी प्रेम दिवस । तर थोरैलाई मात्रै थाह होला कि आज युटुब्ले एक दसक पुरा गरेको दिन भनेर । आजका युबहरुले दशै तिहारमा रमाउन छोडिसके तर प्रेम दिवस अति नै रमाइलो गरेर मनौछन । दशै पनि लग्भ्ग एक हप्ता नै हुन्छ र प्रेम दिवस को रमाइलो पनि एक हप्ता नै तर आज सम्म आइपुग्दा दशै भनेको बुडाखाडाले मात्रै मनाउने पर्व भैसक्यो । बाल्बालिका पनि रमाउछन , मामाघर मा टिका लगाएर पैस पाइन्छ भनेर अनि नया लुगा लगाउँन पाइन्छ भनेर तर हा